The weirdest thought came to me today as I was reading a blog written by a woman who is expecting. Suddenly I thought, “I want to be pregnant.” That came from way out in left field! I haven’t felt that way for a long time!
First of all, my ‘baby’ #4 is 19 years old!! And secondly, getting pregnant just ain’t gonna happen here. I’m in er.. midlife… change of life….. a new phase. I just had a quick little pang of sadness knowing that I will never again experience having another baby. EVER. It is so final. It’s not like I haven’t thought of this before, but something triggered that thought all over again.
So, I’m helping out in the church nursery in December. That might help me get over this feeling. ;)
I've had those feeling before too. Thankfully I've always gotten over them!
ReplyDeleteI've only had that pang once. More often than that though, it occurs to me that technically I can still get pregnant (Matt is 'fixed' and I am not) and I have a moment of sheer panic.
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